2005-06-09 - 11:18 p.m.
Damnit.. I got excited about cooking, and wanted to tell Rahani about something cool that we did in class when we made traditional aspic.
But she gets grossed out... I couldn't curb my enthusiam though, and really upset her. I don't get to talk to her again tonight, and that makes me really sad... I wish I didn't get excited about it...
I've just not been doing well since I left... I've been really upset and struggling alot because I miss her, and I've been screwing up like this... what the hell is wrong with me?
*sighs* if I can't talk to Rahani.. no reason to stay awake... goodnight...
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